wondering as ever

when we choose a part, we must be sure that we can play it to the end; our hero is unique; with special features, a certain attitude..towards life, towards people. we put that character forth? can we handle it?
choosing to leave behind your weaknesses, your wants for security, requires a certain level of awareness. to be aware of who you are, what cards you're playing with, what cards your opponents are holding; or indifference.
full dedication to the experiment.

leave one part of your emotions behind; leave all of them behind.
fear to feel, fear to show that you feel. fear becomes a feeling itself; fear to show fear.
you chose a strong character; someone who's more than you are. someone who shows it less.
be then;
be that.
be the person(a) you chose to be. the world is a scene, no?

the scene of a crime; against the potential. against infinite possibility.

yes, put yourself in a shell. make a good dwelling out of it, though..
support your fantasy, adorn it, paint it and make it beautiful; take it out and show it around; laugh and smile at the compliments.
be , feel it, play it.
walk in that shoes, walk and feel them yours.
are you strong enough? can you deal with rejection? can you deal with easy? undemanding? how undemanding have you become?

what did I set forth?
I need love. I need love. I need love. tired of feeling like dry land.
water me life. water me with love. this is my time. this is my time to take.
no can give no more.


greedy

have I become? no, balance; take before you don't even have enough for yourself.

summer; like a winter. inside, kept hidden..
needs and desires; I don't need needs, I don't crave for desires. passions.
the dreams are coming true; only when it's too late.
out-of-law feelings. solitude. how can sharing take place?

bubbles bubbles bubbles everywhere..
-hey, I opened mine! why don't you too and play in equal terms?
-equal terms? what is that? hahahaha
-give and take. is that too much?
-well, in this world of bubbles, it's almosr a sin. I think there's also a law against it.
-against what? give and take?
-yes, they check you, and if they find balance between the two,they punish you with excessive supply of one of the two.which is pretty much the same in that quantities.

are you creating a monster? against your will? without your knowledge?

teach? who can you teach? what do you know? what are you sure of? what's stable in you?
I can't even see you, spinning and whirling endlessly. if you just stayed still for just one moment, then I would be able to see what you keep in your center, feel your essence, feel you're mine. and that I'm yours. and that we're one. but you're spinning and whirling endlessly, and I cannot see you, I cannot touch you; and I don't know who you are. and I'm afraid you don't know who am I.
give me a ride inside your mind, and I will pay you back with one in mine.
care to take it?

no, don't answer that. I don't want to know. if you want, I am too fragile, too weird for your eyes. if you don't, I'm too fragile, and too weird for your eyes. strange to touch, to feel , to know. unexplored land. will you leave your flag here?

haven't left mine yet. senseless and numb. un aware. self less. shell confined.
divided to my core, to my basics. how can I handle? how can I handle?

abuse and observe. make basics an adventure. sustain myself successfully. live.
and don't think too much..cause it fucks it all up.