hristougenna tromou

Parolo pou apofasisa otan eftiaxa afto to blog, oti oles oi anartiseis tha einai sta agglika, simera dystyhos anagkazomai na hrisimopoiiso ta ashima kai akalaisthita greeklish..Ontas se mia hora, i opoia apagorevei to alcohol, foraei mantiles stis gynaikes kai logokrinei to facebook (logiko, haha), to teleftaio pragma pou thelo einai na niotho ektethimeni sta matia anthropon pou nai men kales protheseis ehoun, sterimenoi einai de...Tora vevaia ki i lexi ektethimenos malakia einai, mias kai oli afti i energi, ithelimeni, epidiokomeni symmetohi s'olo afto to panigyri "oriste oriste i pramateia mou, gnoriste me, eimai san ki esas, gnoriste me kai tha deite, agapiste me, agapiste me, gnoriste me.." pou epikratei imi-ano-eponyma, mia ekthesi einai..poly filologiko kai den eho kouragio...
Pano sto domatio mou me perimenei miso mpoukali whiskey, paranoma eisagmeno sti hora..isos episyrei kai poines an se piasoun sta prasa me tin en logo banned "apolafsi" pragma pou tha itan megali malakia..hmmm;(aggliki ano-kato teleia)...par'ola afta den katefyga sto misoadeio potiri pou gemisa gia na'rtho kai na lytho edo, mias kai to lysimo ehei arhisei..i dynami mou den einai megali kai kapoies fores ti niotho na me egkataleipei toso xafnika, toso aproeidopoiita sa na me afise na pao moni mou diakopes, eno thymithike teleftaia stigmi oti kati eihe xehasei sto spiti..
akoma ki etsi omos ti niotho san ena paidi pou ehei arhisei na kanei ta prota tou vimata..einai astathis, akoma peftei, ki otan peftei ponaei ki isos klapsei kai ligo, akoma kratietai apo ton proto kontino kanape, akoma dokimazei tis dynatotites tou, alla ehei arhisei..to mpousoulima einai piso mas pia...perasame s'alli fasi, s'allo epipedo..peftei, klaiei, xanasikonetai, synehizei omos..den tha ta paratisei ..xerei oti i dikaiosi tha'rthei telika sooner or later...to stathero perpatima tha kataktithei mehri na ginei to fysiologiko, o kanonas..kai tote olos o kosmos ehei allaxei..ehei allaxei i optiki, ehoun allaxei ta mesa..ehei allaxei olokliri i fysiologia..oi dynatotites fantazoun (kai einai isos) aperioristes..mehri na xeperastei ki afto telika.. ha..einai noris akoma na milame gi'afto vevaia ti stigmi pou to proto einai still stis diapragmatefseis..
ton teleftaio kairo akouo maniodos (pragmatika omos) to "madagascar" apo gogol bordello..nomizo akoma ki i mousiki tous pou einai toso diaforetiki ap'otidipote allo eiha akousei os tora, mou edose mia alli optiki ton pragmaton..den mporo na to diefkriniso akrivos alla einai afti i alli, xeni akoma aisthisi eaftou..san kati na megalonei mesa mou..enas sporos pou panta ypirhe i pou fyteftike se kapoia alli stigmi, ki arhise n'anthizei..ki ego skeftomai: "ton eiha potisei diladi? tou'rixa lipasma? eiha kanei kati toso kalo telika? ..na, rotao apla, giati emena mou eihe fanei oti kati psilokiniseis pigaina na kano alla oles itan lathos...mipos omos ohi? mipos ta pragmata den einai afta pou fainontai? mipos eimai skliri, adiki kai den eho gnoristei akoma kala me ton eafto mou?"
Tetoiou eidous skepseis pano kato,...pano kato, dexia aristera, mpros piso, plagia kai pali plagia, ap'tin alli omos..ktl ktl..mi me parexigeis anonyme KAI anyparkte so far anagnosti, pou eheis idi dethei me to syggrafiko mou styl ton proigoumenon anartiseon (leme tora...) alla prosfata, roufixa, kyriolektika roufixa ena vivlio tou kostaki Anan, named "I teliki lithi", me tin exypnakistiki men haritomeni de translation "The final tholuthion" (haha)kai afto pou eho einai na po einai 2 pragmata:
1) Eimaste perissoteroi ekei exo ap'oti nomizoume! (we will prevail!!!!!)
2) Eiha pei se kapoion filo, oti ton teleftaio kairo antimetopiza tous anthropous sa doheia..Poly sosta, (horis na to xero ego vevaia tote)mou apantise: prosehe ti rihneis mesa tous giati ki esy "pineis" ap'afta ta doheia..den ixera tote..tora omos xero..efharisto g

"kai pou kollaei afto?" anarotiesai avriane methavriane anagnosti..kollaei sto oti allaxa styl giati eimai ena sfouggari kai aporrofo oti erhetai s'epafi mazi mou ki ego mazi tou..kai tis teleftaies meres itan o Anan kai to akros diaskedastiko vivlio tou..prepei omos opos leei ki o g, na proseho ti dino gia na min vretho pro dysareston ekplixeon me to paihnidi pou tha katalixo na kratao sta heria mou (entaxei, den to'pe etsi akrivos, alla poiitiki adeia ki alles tetoies psonistikes malakies mpla mpla mpla)

to blog mou einai -opos ki ego- rough around the edges, ki isos etsi na'prepe na onomastei i na metonomastei alla pros to paron simasia ehei to periehomeno..alloste anyparkte anagnosti kanenas den eisai, ara..logotehnikos (?) avnanismos einai stin teliki..

m'afta kai m'ekeina ki ola t'alla asynartita, thelo na kleiso, legontas:
Kopste ti malakia kai kante erota!!!! - (kai) s'emena to leo..

de-touched

leaving behind me Philip K. Dick's "Transmigration of Timothy Archer",
this hour finds me here.
I was thinking about the title I gave to this blog and its reason of existence..
the caravan..Am I the caravan or the desert landscapes over which the caravan just passes before it moves forth almost immediately?
People with whose auras mine intertwines..are they my caravans? are they my desert?
who leaves whom behind?
I tried to open up (I still do; my faith in human nature is and will be, as it at least seems now, infinite) and I realized that "other" people can go along with me that far..not more.

so, I have to learn and start to accept it and feel grateful for everything that I get, whether this lasts long or not..
I will fight to identify myself with everyone and catch within them a glimpse of the essence we share; I'll try hard to detach myself from the need to belong and possess.

day one of trying to blog

first day of sharing the not-so-inner thoughts
with the rest of..anyone..possibly no one..
it just got to a point where all these mental schemes grew too big for a brain
and a soul to contain..and perhaps, way too heavy for "strangers" to listen to..
and, understanding this, I'll pour it all out here, where "strangers" can come and go as they please,
without emotional or any other kind of attachments..I wanna get rid of them myself, so, it would be quite controversial to impose them on others..
listening to efterklang whom I've just discovered and will accompany me from now on to my
future "trips", I am closing this first day's attempt to blog..

let the pouring begin..